i wish i could help.
i seem to always be doing the wrong things or saying the wrong stuff. sometimes i am v disgusted with myself.
causing so many... waves. literally(paddle splash too much), & figuratively(keep harping on things).
maybe i should be less aspiring? & work with what i'm dealt? wish that there will be common topics. they are so hard to find these days. or these years.
i am 16 years old. i seem to be at a loss for options. like, every door has closed and i see no open doors yet.
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
9:05 PM
Monday, September 08, 2008
about sunday's matches.
i dun think it's too bad. i attempted a shot in the game agst red tide ladies. it didn't go in 'cos it curved too far to the left but then lol it dinn get blocked by any paddles :P "lob ball". hengfoo tells us to just attempt any shot at any chance we've got. unlikely it'll get blocked by paddle 'cos ours are lob balls. LOL.
oh yeah on saturday, i cut in between an scube player and the ball and got it. but i forgot what happened next. wah. they are hiong. i mean of course la, if you got the ball, sure got people come and pressure you one. i remember once someone was pressuring yunzhi, so she passed to me 'cos i was open. then the person who initially wanted to pressure her immediately change course for me :D while she was approaching me, i shield the ball, then when she was nearer to me i pass to yunzhi who was open, then the person who turned to pressure me can't go back to pressure yunzhi in time :P :P :P!
in the match against SMOGs, there was once i really feel quite proud of myself. when we lose possession or any "mistake" happens, we are all supposed to rush back to defend & zone. however, i think i became more daring & spiritually stronger(don't know how to say, maybe i became more confident). there was a ball which fell into the water. i think we lost possession. or the SMOGs bad pass. so i turned fast to get it(the rest were preparing to or already returning to zone). at first me and the SMOG girl were fighting with paddles. then we started using our hands at the same time. but good thing lah. 'cos we use hands at the same time neither of us can handtackle each other. so we were fighting for the ball and i jus snatched the ball away(like what i did during captain ball once during PE agst huixin, quite hiong. i mean, i think that's what i was like when i snatch balls. maybe it's a bad thing la). then my teammates turned to come back but i forgot what happened le... :$ after that they were saying that the spectators were all cheering for me while i was fighting for that ball. wow. now i understand what xuanhao meant by "when i'm in the game, i just block out everything and concentrate on the game". 'cos i didn't even know that the spectators cheered. maybe too concentrated on getting the ball le. but i could hear when i was chasing for first ball. maybe it's more quiet tt time(as in the game jus start so the game/players in action not so noisy :P)
also in the match against SMOGs, i remember i committed 5-seconds-possession foul. lol. i was trying to shield the ball to wait for people whom i can pass to. but i think i passed too late? erm, but then i really couldn't find anyone. so i was shielding. the person kept pressuring me and handtackle me but i didn't cap... but then phweeeeet! 5 seconds! lol. :$
someone also tried to handtackle me. a very skinny girl(i don't know her name). but she PUSH WRONG PART SIA! she molest meeeeeeee! hahaha. i feel violated LOL!!! then referee phweeeeeet and it was illegal tackle and she smiled sheepishly at me hahahahah. quite cute la. lol. i was trying to shield the ball. at least i not that scared of handtackle la. i think. i used white boats all the way throughout competition 'cos i think it's really good to use. footrests are nearer than blue boats. :D easier to roll i think :D
ohh... i committed a paddle-to-hand foul during one of the matches but i can't remember which. anyway, i just feel that this whole competition was a good experience and i hope to play more matches in the future. hai. this week + next week got so many tests again... life is sad :(
i jus wanna correct my paddling technique now. i think that once i correct it i can sail through the waters like a dragon(i hope so :P). hopefully i'll be able to chase my first successful ball one day(in a competition/friendly). i hope to attempt many more shots in the future as well.
ocube is really impressive. the way they pass such hard-to-pass in-zone shots. rookies/SP teams scarier. the people pressure like crazy and they can still pass. scoring is very difficult with so many paddles pressuring. :x
i really enjoyed the competition. yeah, we weren't aiming to win, and i felt that i was having fun all the time. no pressure :) well, i guess we still are expected to learn something out of this competition. it was a great experience. & i really think i put in my best best best efforts. wish people can gimme due credit! 'cos sometimes i feel like those Russian gymnasts, when they have already tried their best but their coach keeps on wanting them to be more perfect. (p.s. i'm not talking about hengfoo here). i think that improvement will come with time. maybe it's out of my capabilities. but in the future things will get better.
images and scenes of polo keeps running through my mind. don't be scared :) play it and give it all you've got. because you know you love it :)
-a decade of passion :D
[NUS High Ladies No. 1 (chaser) :D]
p.s. hengfoo was like saying "wahlao play against xiao hai zi still want to shout so much!" LOL the NUS ppl... anyway the guys tied with them... wonder if there will be extra time... should have... haha. but duno what happen ley. (???)
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
2:08 PM
Sunday, September 07, 2008
today very nice day
although sp match, is not good, 'cos made many mistakes. well, sp also sort of not on form i guess. could tell. though they scored 6!! but then they were a bit unhappy i think. jiayou sp!!
not tt scube match good, but i feel that even though we let in more goals this time our playing improved a BIT ba. in this game. scube is national team leh! haha.
ok. so tt's about it. celebrate coachie's b'day. no time to make card. wanyu & i went to coronation plaza last min. during our lunch break to get materials to make hengfoo's card. initally a card but no materials available so made big poster/board. successful plan.
then the cake, give the board(tingyi say v cute haha the superman labixiaoxin) & keychain, and photo taking of hengfoo with the board.


before lunch break i got hold of ice cube and shook everyone's hand with it. then wanted to shake hengfoo's hand so told him happy b'day but couldn't hold hand out 'cos ice cube will drop. so he thought my closed fist was his b'day present but i said "nonono" then shake hands with him but his hand too big and the ice cube jus swished around -.- nvr shock him ley. like wat happened with tiong/xuanhao previously. hai. their hands too big.
so hengfoo ask me "why u gimme ice cube?"
LOL then his captain laugh.
wanyu and i ask hengfoo wat time he leaving, then he say he staying all the way. "why? u wanna gimme a card?" "nonono! we are NOT gonna give u ANYTHING... " then hengfoo say we make card every week. last week make card for mr chua, this week also make card. jackson told me and wanyu to might as well not give him, he dun appreciate hahaha! then he tell us to take the card and jus rip it apart in front of hengfoo's eyes. then hengfoo imitate the ripping action. so funny...
err. then chase against scube, hengfoo tell us tt those evil women are gonna manmark us. lol. erm, quite ok. i think erica is very chio :P and eliza is very pro :D hahaha. i was being marked by someone i duno her name haha i managed to cut through to get ball from her(she nvr handtackle me), but there was also once i say i sprint up but i turn to look at ball and the ball was already in front le then lost it :(
anyway, before the game start hengfoo was like saying "ting an dun be scared of chasing. the scube chaser is as short as u!"
grrrr. hanna i short. but i'll grow ok. & i may be short but my aspirations are high!
GOOOOOOOOOOO ALL THE WAY NUS HIGH LADIES! may we stay together forever for as long as possible. (L) at least one more competition together ok, ladies? :D ^^
ok this post is not organised. sorry i dun have time. (I NEED TO SLEEP) jus noting down highlights of the day... maybe elaborate next time.
p.s. me and wanyu saw the sp guys in the AUTHORISED PERSONNEL ACCESS ONLY gymnasium!!! LOL. throwing all the gym sponges around. then we peek through the holes and they SLAP the sponges at the holes and we were like "OWWWW" "SHIT!" haha!
and while me and wanyu were in the middle of the road some stupid guy in a car scream at us while he past. what an idiot!!
okok tt's all... got more but i really need to sleep now. hope photos will be entertaining enough. pls go to nushcpt.blogspot.com for entire birthday proceedings...
oh yeah, before i left(but came back later 'cos dad not there yet) said bye to hengfoo. forgot what we said. i think we asked him if he liked the board. then after he said bye he told me "eh you forgot your bag!" then he point to the pink disney princess bag lying there. LOL. i was like turning back frantically to see what i had left behind... then he laugh o.o dunno if he jus wanna trick me or he laughing tt my stuff are all pink. [edit 8/9/08: i finally talked to alvin lee. lol. he finally found out who i was hahaha! then he said "wah, your things are all pink!" lol. yeah, pink like 12 lotus logo (: for those who are still living under a rock, pls go to:
http://canoepolo.blogspot.com !]
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
12:25 AM
Friday, September 05, 2008
COMPETITION TOMORROWqwertyuiop!!! !@#$%^&*()_+!!!
lol...!!
sleep early!!
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
4:23 PM
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
moving on
after spates of emotions and tears,
it is always time to move on and start afresh. at least i hope so & that's what i intend to do.
maybe i am in the wrong, maybe there's something wrong in the way you do things, but whatever it is,
let everything start anew.
let all tinted glasses become clear.
let us all welcome one another back.
maybe you don't want to, maybe i will always be "always", and not "used to".
but it's okay.
i will move on. i know that there will at least be one person who wants me to move on. & i will. 'cos i think he/she might have beliefs in me.

:O

the date is wrong. it should be 2006. haha.
believe in me, ok?
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
12:35 AM
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
what i wish for
i wish for someone who will believe in me no matter what.
when i seem to lack promise & always let people down, and people are really sick of me,
i wish that there will be someone who still firmly believes in me, believes that i am promising and capable of so much.
they will believe that all the bad things will clear eventually, and that after that i will be great. & they look forward to seeing that day.
as a teammate/canoe polo player,
i know that my parents will not be these kind of people.
& it's hard to expect others to be as well.
after all,
he/she always used to (do this/that...)who can safely and 100% say that they will think this way?
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
11:24 PM
lol. so funny. (sometimes the disappointing and sad stuff overwhelms me, but i shall just let it be, and tell myself, it doesn't matter! other people experience it too, and i'm sure i have other things in my life to appreciate. all these stuff make me grow. time to revise the happiness theory hengfoo told me about long long time ago!)
This is something my dad showed me from his file of old cards/letters we wrote to him for father's day/his birthday. realised that it's getting less :( and more efforts are put into making cards for teachers/coachies. maybe i will do something good for my daddy when his birthday comes this year.
this is what i wrote to him years ago, and i can't rmb how old i was then.
Dear Father, welcome back to "Bless our Home". We are happy to see you! We will have a great time with you! Ecstasy will rush over us breezily(this is from my tuition class in which i learnt all these phrases! gahh!!)
, when we meet you! We shall have a wonderful time with you, I miss you! We were very bored when you were not at home. God loves you, our christian God is the real God, your Buddha god is unreal, real Gods have real powers, unreal gods have unreal powers. Unreal gods have unreal powers to protect you.From: Ting AnThank you for letting me go to Mayflower Primary School: Where we care and share!(the moral values of the school LOL)
We love Art/Craft! We make these at school(then i draw the stuff we make at sch LOL)
I love U, PaPa!Join the dots!(draws dots)
I join for you.-----
LOL. LOL. LOL
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
1:29 AM
i should really post about some happier things. there ARE things that make me happy.
anyway, the past weekend was the 10th pesta sukan canoe polo national championship 2008! ;)
let's post some pictures.

lianhan!

randy!

hengfoo!
these pictures are from okb.
i took some pictures of my friends from SP playing. will put them up sometime too. and i took videos of our guys matches!!
i think our guys were very hiong! performed well!!!
more to come later. i believe that this weekend will be the day when they get their first. first what? you don't have to think. just believe.
girls, we must jiayou!!! WE CAN DO IT!!
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anyway, i saw yanli! as in, i was walking towards the nus high group from the toilet and then yanli suddenly popped up in front of me. hahaha! then we hugged each other and i wished her all the best for her matches. :D then i told her i dinn have matches tt week. haha. she's nice!!! i was happy when i met her :D that was just before i was going home i think.
then next day, yanli called my name and i turned to my side and saw her! then someone tap my shoulder and i turn around. guess who! XIAOHUANG :D hahaha! they are so cute! should take pic together some day!
and then SP had this group of junior girl supporters. LOL. they so enthu!!
anyway, took some pics of the SP girls playing and will put them up once I get them from tk's camera.
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about z rookies! we watched our coachies play (no. 3 and no. 8) and were amazed and felt "shiok". so fun! and jehon was like "let's watch this total one-sided ownage! that team is made up of all the coaches of all the teams here luh!" HAHA. so funny! there was once jackson passed ball inside to teammate but teammate never look!
and hengfoo FAST BREAK!!! :D
tt reminds me of something tiong said.
hengfoo: guys, can you tell me why you all never fast break today?
tiong: 'cos we never eat break-fast.
DIAO!!! :D
i love nus high canoe polo team!!
wanted to call ourselves nus high ladies, but then the guys would have to be nus high gentlemen, and they aren't supposed to be gentle!!! LOL!!! so... roughmen? sounds ruffian. how about... toughmen? tt's just a typo error of roughmen but it came up with such a cool name rite! toughmen! great!
nus high toughmen jiayou fight for your ranking!!!
JIAYOU NUS HIGH LADIES. WE CAN DO IT.
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
12:38 AM
Monday, September 01, 2008
Post-It Girl
便利贴女孩从小就很害怕别人不喜欢自己,所以她一直很努力的要对别人好。大家都叫她便利贴女孩,因为当有人需要她,撕下来就能用,不需要时随手乱扔也无所谓。-改编于 《命中注定我爱你〉Post-it Girl. I think I am like one. When people need me, they will ask me stuff like to lend them my assignment, and what topics the chemistry quiz will be tested on etc. Okay lah, maybe some people still are willing to lend a listening ear to me. But other than that, I think I am still Post-it Girl.
I guess some people are very reluctant to let me help/contribute. Well I guess I do like it when people ask me for help, 'cos it makes me feel like I can be depended on. But it's kind of hurtful when people only let me help when they've got no choice and only when their friends want me to help, and they can't resist peer pressure.
Post-it Girl. Convenient, readily available. Easily forgotten and dispensable at other times.
Are post-its important?
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
10:37 PM
心愿便利贴男:一天一天贴近你的心
Closer to your heart day by day
你开心 我关心
You are happy; I'm concerned
女:一点一滴我都能感应
I can feel every bit & every drop
你是我最美的相信
You are my most beautiful belief
男:等不到双子座流星雨
撒满天际
Couldn't wait for the Gemini meteor rain to fill the sky
女:先点燃九支仙女棒代替
Light up nine sparklers first as a replacement
男:最灿烂不一定要许多钻石黄金
You don't need many diamonds & gold to be the brightest
合:看你眼睛有幸福的倒影
Looking at your eyes, I see a reflection of happiness
女:把你的讨厌转几遍送到天边
Twirling the irritating stuff about you a few times and sending them to the sky(forgetting about them)
男:平凡的傻事用了心变成经典
The plainest, stupidest things, after putting your heart into them, they become classics
合:最浪漫的心愿便利贴
The most romantic wish post-its
贴成无限
sticking a picture without limits
就是我们最富有的宣言
That is the richest declaration we have got
男:把你的喜欢每一天复习两遍
Revising your favourite things twice everyday
女:惊喜的语言我的天通通灵验
Surprising things said, my God, all turned to reality
合:你和我的心愿便利贴
Our wish post-its
贴心里面
Stuck into our hearts
收集感动
Collecting all our emotions
给以后怀念
For reminiscence in the future
男:等不到双子座流星雨
撒满天际
女:先点燃九支仙女棒代替
男:最灿烂不一定要许多钻石黄金
合:看你眼睛有幸福的倒影
女:把你的讨厌转几遍送到天边
男:平凡的傻事用了心变成经典
合:最浪漫的心愿便利贴
贴成无限 就是我们最富有的宣言
男:把你的喜欢每一天复习两遍
女:惊喜的语言我的天通通灵验
合:你和我的心愿便利贴
贴心里面 收集感动 给以后怀念
女:把你的讨厌转几遍送到天边
男:平凡的傻事用了心变成经典
合:最浪漫的心愿便利贴
贴成无限 就是我们最富有的宣言
把你的喜欢每一天复习两遍
惊喜的语言都为你提早灵验
你和我的心愿便利贴
贴心里面 收集感动 给以后怀念
女:一天一天贴近你的心
男:一点一滴我都能感应
合:你是最美的相信
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
2:20 PM