Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
10:34 PM

Monday, November 13, 2006

Heehee I'm in school. Sigh. My blog's gone bonkers ever since my tagboard's gone bonkers. :(

Yeah... I've tried to post once or twice at home but I always come to a page that says "This page cannot be displayed". Zzz -_-

Sigh. So it's not that I haven't been blogging k. =D Hope this post works. Then I can have a "November" archive link! Yeah!! Hahah... then maybe I shall change my tagboard while I'm here... then my blog can work properly and seem more visitor-friendly. =D

Okay... and I will do that interesting handphone quiz which I found on Rachel's friend's blog... =D And... I have an October 25 post... but I couldn't post it... heh... don't care lah. Maybe it's God's will that it stays as just a Microsoft Word document in my computer. Maybe it means that if I post it, complications will arise. So better not post it lo... =D

LOVE EVERYONE!

And... I didn't do too badly for my exams lah. This semester... should be able to scrape past 4...? Bleh... I don't know lah. Sigh I really don't know. Never imagined myself getting a 3.something... not even 3.99999999999999999. Hahah I'm full of BS. =D Okay... so I'm really sad that we're separating.

And I'm beginning to hate some people. That's a SIN which I'm trying to purge... so now just... see no evil... I keep my distance lest I do anything bad. Yeah... keep my distance and try to forget. But when they talk/touch my stuff/look at my marks... zzz my blood really boils you know. It's a tire/pain talking to them too. Not their fault obviously. I'm just so tired nowadays. I don't wish to open my mouth to speak any words if I don't have to.

And I sprained my knee again. Ms McCully says my pivots are very jumpy... not good... GAH. And my pirouettes! My left one seems to be really slow but I seem to be the only one in class who can balance in pirouette position on my left leg K! I CAN BALANCE EVEN AFTER TURNING, WHICH IS DAMN PRO. My classmates just turn and quickly put right leg down 'cos they can't balance lo. But it's pardonable... they're just 12-yr-olds while I'm an OLD 14-yr-old who's supposed to have stronger legs. But my right leg can't support well. JUST SPRAINED MY KNEE. ZZZ. So my right pirouettes were a DISASTER. I KEPT FALLING BACKWARDS. SO DARN EMBARRASSING. Good thing everybody was too engrossed in trying to do their own pirouettes to notice my struggles. Sigh. If I had never sprained my knee in Primary 6, I'd probably be good at pirouettes to both sides. Even En Dedan, AND, my pivots would be good too. Now I keep thinking, what caused this seemingly irreversible harm to my knee? I keep thinking it was that evil PE teacher who made me walk and run up the stairs, shouting at me that my knee was okay and there was nothing wrong. She told me to stop limping/walking "tt" way and just told me to walk/run. I tell you, I sprained it 2 times tt day I'm sure. Until I started crying when the Social Studies teacher(also level head) came into the classroom, was I sent to the GO, on a WHEELCHAIR. And my parents also came to school. When the PE teacher heard about it, she THEN came to the classroom to ask if I was okay. I tell you, wasn't it too late already? When she made me run more/walk and made me sprain my knee again, I bet you, my knee was a GONER FOREVER.

I HATE THIS. I hate always having this obstacle whenever I try to do something. Others can do it with ease while I have to be extra careful. Or I can't do it. It totally sucks. I don't know how I managed to forgive the PE teacher, but when she came up to ask if I was okay, even though filled with doubt and cynicism, I didn't put it to heart. But NOW, I really really really regret. As in, I don't hate her, but she really did something that hurt me(physically and mentally lah obv), so I use the word "regret".

Whatever it is, I shall just pray to God that in whatever I do, my knee will not come in my way. Esp ballet, 'cos my knees are just so important in ballet. God will help me through this. =)

I have faith. =D

P.S. I deleted my tagboard... so the blog may look weird... does not matter... if I have the time to come back again... I'll put a tagboard... k... tataz