Today, I smiled a lot. Actually it's not really like nobody acknowledges me it's just that I do it faster. Like first day saw Hongbo and Zhongming and Charmaine and those upper secs lah. I think I shouldn't wallow in self pity, if not I will be really pathetic man.
Today I smiled a lot. Dunno why. Physics Elective was fantabulous! Ms Ang really quite fun and cute! She told Abigail that if she kept talking she might have to chase her out but after she said that she pouted leh. SO CUTE lol. O.o we gotta bring Conceptual Physics. And I borrowed 2 copies of "Introduction to Relativity" comic series from the library because Xuanhao wanted a copy too. Ms Ang categorised that under "fun" reading. And I want to borrow "Alice in
" too. Gah the girls(Yanling and her friends... Jiayi and some yr1 girl forgot her name lah! She looks like May Fong =D) were laughing at the title. QUANTUM MECHANICS! Bleagh.
Anyway I am really quite looking forward to finding out how to turn back time, or rather the fantastic ideas.
Anyway Yanling and her friends(Deb Jiayi and someone hehe) were playing this fortune telling game. "Fortune telling". Someone said a number from 1 to 265 or something... then the "fortune teller" will turn to that page of the
and ask her to choose a number from 1 to 10 and if odd is the first chengyu even would be second. LOL. I got this chengyu called "duo1 duo1 yi4 shan4" lol. We were sort of laughing so hard. Yanling was trying so hard to imitate and sounded really funny. But Jiayi kept saying she should do it 'cos she's the da4 shi1. Lol these girls ah... =D Anyway I did something for Jiayi she got "ai4 wu1 ji2 wu1" -.-
Oh yeah btw that yr1 girl who looked like May Fong… sorry ah for saying you look like yr3… but of course you still seem yr 1 lah… hahah ‘cos… it’s just a feel. You feel like a yr1. LOL. And actually you do look yr1 lah.
LOL.
Oo before that, I passed up my add-drop module form already. Then was in concourse looking through modules list(WHY MY NAME NOT IN FINE ARTS?! forget it i not taking anw. WHY NO PHYSICS BRIDGING MODULE?! I TAKING THAT AH! emailed ms lim) then Wenxiang popped up. Ask me how come I looked so sad?! oo then he thought he didn't gimme red present I very sad. He said I like very sad like that, 'cos apparently he gave Xuanhao red present never gimme lor! "You used Xuanhao's account right" "Yeah lah... he ask me to beg you for the red present one lor" "You very sad right give Xuanhao don't give u... nevermind lah I give u red present lah..." "I lvl 31 liao leh yay! but dunno if i can still do quest" "nvm one still can do the quest"
Hehe. Red present here I come! Btw Xuanhao if you are reading this, =S I want the red present. =S If get bandana... =S =S =S I don't want to give you =S Must pity me. I only have one pathetic little maple claw and it's so lousy lor! =S
Anyway while Luke was playing badminton with Xuanhao, Emman Wenxiang and I sat on the ground and talked and talked endlessly about maple and what happened to us, scam, selling weight earrings for 10k+2 gold ores(I did that) and they were awed hahaha because I earned about 30k in total and profited 25k! lol! And Xuanhao was like saying "yalor blahblahblah" then Wenxiang gasped lol. Then I told him I got some evil spirit thingy... summoning rock... etc. They didn't know what the evil spirt was... they said maybe it's hack item! Xuanhao said "scarly everytime sign in tke away 10 mesos" lol. It was an enjoyable "session".
Well I smiled a lot today. =) Except someone rolled eyes at me, I was quite hurt. Never mind. Then, there was someone who appeared at where I didn't want that person to appear. Sigh.
Nevermind. And I recorded Dolly Berceuse on the piano! Not fully though... 'cos I don't know the bass part lor... I'm supposed to play Primo lah anyway. So I just practised Secondo and recorded it and then recorded the Primo. Sounds really nice. Mr Ang listened and said I could pretend and I didn't hear it and when Karyen finally told me what he said, I told him "I PLAY THIS ONE OK!" LOL and he said he knew.
Anyway... I just want to apologise to ShiYi... sorry for all the cold shoulders and hostile glares which I sometimes just... couldn't help as a reflex action dunno why. Nevermind. I hope things will get better. And that you will not think I hate you, 'cos I don't k? =)
Well today I readily switched with Gary for the roles of replacing mentors for a class. He was supposed to be taking 102 and me 203 but he switched with me. I never expected it to be so disastrous…
Probably because the number of 102 people I know is limited, I know not about the actual reality about the class. The people I’ve known from 102 are still relatively mild. If I hadn’t taken over 102 for today(it was a terrible session btw), I wouldn’t have known the problems this group of little young boys and girls were facing. Social problems, attitude problems… some refused to take part. Actually, I agree that it is really difficult to try to get everyone involved since this planning of the Rube Goldberg machine really isn’t easy and most people just don’t care… but this is really not the right attitude though.
Anyway… Clayton and Chongwei were both saying my voice was too soft and I couldn’t be a teacher etcetc… all these implied that I had no leadership abilities. Hmmm… I think I’m really not experienced enough… ‘cos most of the kids I have looked after weren’t so problematic. I guess I’ll just have to learn from this and do better next time. Clayton told Xuanhao all about it lol.
Whatever it is, to the best of my ability, I will nominate Magneline and Wenxiang to be PSLs next year. Magneline is really a very mature and sensible little girl. Love her so much! She supported me throughout the whole mentoring session and some of her words to her classmates really let me witness what a true leader should be like. As for Wenxiang… I have seen him lead the P6s during the Ma and Sci camp(2nd one which I didn’t blog about) and he was really a good leader. He knew what he was doing and he helped in the evaluation of the students. A really good leader who knows when to be firm.
Well… a disastrous and tiring and EMBARRASSING mentoring session with my junior class. Blah. I need to improve on my voice projection! My firmity! Yingzhen and Yunzhi(y^2 z^2 ^^) were walking around and they said I looked very tired. They could tell that 102 was hard to manage lol. Anyway… I do believe that 102 kids are still very guai deep down… they’re just like… very restless and noisy and active lah… lol youngsters nowadays lol. Anyway… were we like that last year when we were 102? Actually I doubt so. We were sort of quieter I think… haiyah these children born in the year of chickens like to cackle around. LOL just joking. Anyway I have to mention that 05102 really become laokokkok I think less than 10 passed up health booklets. Sigh… hai2 shi4 nian2 qing1 ren2 bi3 jiao4 you3 ji4 xing4, 102 all of them passed up except 4! Woohoo this goes to show that our(05102) brain cells are dying. -.-
CAME HOME AND DID MY ENGLISH POSTER! Discussed with Xuanhao… I decided to do on… *drumsroll* NOT TELLING =D Anyway I had the design in my head and told Kenneth what to do(‘cos I dunno how to do it in photoshop) and he did a beautiful background for me! =D THANKS! =D Spent 5 hours on it and finished it! Don’t know if it’s satisfactory… I even went into Maple and told someone to sit on blue chair and smile at me and say hi to take a screenshot. =D
Oh yeah Bryan came into 102 and… was shocked. Or something… toldya I can’t decipher Bryan’s emotions. Anyway it was embarrassing lah. =/ I would really have rather taken 202. But couldn’t take own class. =/ LOVE 202! I heard they were really good and came up with some plan! =D
Anyway, today we(group of yr2s) were talking about next yr’s reshuffling. It’s scandalous man! BLAH. Talking and talking about it… then on the bus Chongwei was sleeping… and I was trying to take pic and video LOL. And I was giggling away and Fangyi said “If only we could be so happy like this girl here(me)” and she said they think too much and stuff… well I do think a lot… but sometimes I just… forget them all and… enjoy the wonders and joy in my life. Chongwei sleeping! Ahahaaa. If can upload photo I will. =D
my posts for the past few days... now don't really feel the same. I just hope I could spend more time with my class now... spend the time left meaningfully... I'd really rather be playing games with my classmates on Youth Day than being station masters... I really miss 202.
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
8:25 PM
TuesdayToday, I smiled a lot. Actually it's not really like nobody acknowledges me it's just that I do it faster. Like first day saw Hongbo and Zhongming and Charmaine and those upper secs lah. I think I shouldn't wallow in self pity, if not I will be really pathetic man.
Today I smiled a lot. Dunno why. Physics Elective was fantabulous! Ms Ang really quite fun and cute! She told Abigail that if she kept talking she might have to chase her out but after she said that she pouted leh. SO CUTE lol. O.o we gotta bring Conceptual Physics. And I borrowed 2 copies of "Introduction to Relativity" comic series from the library because Xuanhao wanted a copy too. Ms Ang categorised that under "fun" reading. And I want to borrow "Alice in
Quantumland" too. Gah the girls(Yanling and her friends... Jiayi and some yr1 girl forgot her name lah! She looks like May Fong =D) were laughing at the title. QUANTUM MECHANICS! Bleagh.
Anyway I am really quite looking forward to finding out how to turn back time, or rather the fantastic ideas.
Anyway Yanling and her friends(Deb Jiayi and someone hehe) were playing this fortune telling game. "Fortune telling". Someone said a number from 1 to 265 or something... then the "fortune teller" will turn to that page of the
cheng yu zi dian and ask her to choose a number from 1 to 10 and if odd is the first chengyu even would be second. LOL. I got this chengyu called "duo1 duo1 yi4 shan4" lol. We were sort of laughing so hard. Yanling was trying so hard to imitate and sounded really funny. But Jiayi kept saying she should do it 'cos she's the da4 shi1. Lol these girls ah... =D Anyway I did something for Jiayi she got "ai4 wu1 ji2 wu1" -.-
Oh yeah btw that yr1 girl who looked like May Fong… sorry ah for saying you look like yr3… but of course you still seem yr 1 lah… hahah ‘cos… it’s just a feel. You feel like a yr1. LOL. And actually you do look yr1 lah.
LOL.
Oo before that, I passed up my add-drop module form already. Then was in concourse looking through modules list(WHY MY NAME NOT IN FINE ARTS?! forget it i not taking anw. WHY NO PHYSICS BRIDGING MODULE?! I TAKING THAT AH! emailed ms lim) then Wenxiang popped up. Ask me how come I looked so sad?! oo then he thought he didn't gimme red present I very sad. He said I like very sad like that, 'cos apparently he gave Xuanhao red present never gimme lor! "You used Xuanhao's account right" "Yeah lah... he ask me to beg you for the red present one lor" "You very sad right give Xuanhao don't give u... nevermind lah I give u red present lah..." "I lvl 31 liao leh yay! but dunno if i can still do quest" "nvm one still can do the quest"
Hehe. Red present here I come! Btw Xuanhao if you are reading this, =S I want the red present. =S If get bandana... =S =S =S I don't want to give you =S Must pity me. I only have one pathetic little maple claw and it's so lousy lor! =S
Anyway while Luke was playing badminton with Xuanhao, Emman Wenxiang and I sat on the ground and talked and talked endlessly about maple and what happened to us, scam, selling weight earrings for 10k+2 gold ores(I did that) and they were awed hahaha because I earned about 30k in total and profited 25k! lol! And Xuanhao was like saying "yalor blahblahblah" then Wenxiang gasped lol. Then I told him I got some evil spirit thingy... summoning rock... etc. They didn't know what the evil spirt was... they said maybe it's hack item! Xuanhao said "scarly everytime sign in tke away 10 mesos" lol. It was an enjoyable "session".
Well I smiled a lot today. =) Except someone rolled eyes at me, I was quite hurt. Never mind. Then, there was someone who appeared at where I didn't want that person to appear. Sigh.
Nevermind. And I recorded Dolly Berceuse on the piano! Not fully though... 'cos I don't know the bass part lor... I'm supposed to play Primo lah anyway. So I just practised Secondo and recorded it and then recorded the Primo. Sounds really nice. Mr Ang listened and said I could pretend and I didn't hear it and when Karyen finally told me what he said, I told him "I PLAY THIS ONE OK!" LOL and he said he knew.
Anyway... I just want to apologise to ShiYi... sorry for all the cold shoulders and hostile glares which I sometimes just... couldn't help as a reflex action dunno why. Nevermind. I hope things will get better. And that you will not think I hate you, 'cos I don't k? =)
WednesdayWell today I readily switched with Gary for the roles of replacing mentors for a class. He was supposed to be taking 102 and me 203 but he switched with me. I never expected it to be so disastrous…
Probably because the number of 102 people I know is limited, I know not about the actual reality about the class. The people I’ve known from 102 are still relatively mild. If I hadn’t taken over 102 for today(it was a terrible session btw), I wouldn’t have known the problems this group of little young boys and girls were facing. Social problems, attitude problems… some refused to take part. Actually, I agree that it is really difficult to try to get everyone involved since this planning of the Rube Goldberg machine really isn’t easy and most people just don’t care… but this is really not the right attitude though.
Anyway… Clayton and Chongwei were both saying my voice was too soft and I couldn’t be a teacher etcetc… all these implied that I had no leadership abilities. Hmmm… I think I’m really not experienced enough… ‘cos most of the kids I have looked after weren’t so problematic. I guess I’ll just have to learn from this and do better next time. Clayton told Xuanhao all about it lol.
Whatever it is, to the best of my ability, I will nominate Magneline and Wenxiang to be PSLs next year. Magneline is really a very mature and sensible little girl. Love her so much! She supported me throughout the whole mentoring session and some of her words to her classmates really let me witness what a true leader should be like. As for Wenxiang… I have seen him lead the P6s during the Ma and Sci camp(2nd one which I didn’t blog about) and he was really a good leader. He knew what he was doing and he helped in the evaluation of the students. A really good leader who knows when to be firm.
Well… a disastrous and tiring and EMBARRASSING mentoring session with my junior class. Blah. I need to improve on my voice projection! My firmity! Yingzhen and Yunzhi(y^2 z^2 ^^) were walking around and they said I looked very tired. They could tell that 102 was hard to manage lol. Anyway… I do believe that 102 kids are still very guai deep down… they’re just like… very restless and noisy and active lah… lol youngsters nowadays lol. Anyway… were we like that last year when we were 102? Actually I doubt so. We were sort of quieter I think… haiyah these children born in the year of chickens like to cackle around. LOL just joking. Anyway I have to mention that 05102 really become laokokkok I think less than 10 passed up health booklets. Sigh… hai2 shi4 nian2 qing1 ren2 bi3 jiao4 you3 ji4 xing4, 102 all of them passed up except 4! Woohoo this goes to show that our(05102) brain cells are dying. -.-
CAME HOME AND DID MY ENGLISH POSTER! Discussed with Xuanhao… I decided to do on… *drumsroll* NOT TELLING =D Anyway I had the design in my head and told Kenneth what to do(‘cos I dunno how to do it in photoshop) and he did a beautiful background for me! =D THANKS! =D Spent 5 hours on it and finished it! Don’t know if it’s satisfactory… I even went into Maple and told someone to sit on blue chair and smile at me and say hi to take a screenshot. =D
Oooooops did I just reveal my poster topic! Hahah…
Nite nite everybody… (12.34 AM COOL TIME)
02 powers! 102 202 302 402! =D
Oh yeah Bryan came into 102 and… was shocked. Or something… toldya I can’t decipher Bryan’s emotions. Anyway it was embarrassing lah. =/ I would really have rather taken 202. But couldn’t take own class. =/ LOVE 202! I heard they were really good and came up with some plan! =D
Anyway, today we(group of yr2s) were talking about next yr’s reshuffling. It’s scandalous man! BLAH. Talking and talking about it… then on the bus Chongwei was sleeping… and I was trying to take pic and video LOL. And I was giggling away and Fangyi said “If only we could be so happy like this girl here(me)” and she said they think too much and stuff… well I do think a lot… but sometimes I just… forget them all and… enjoy the wonders and joy in my life. Chongwei sleeping! Ahahaaa. If can upload photo I will. =D
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my posts for the past few days... now don't really feel the same. I just hope I could spend more time with my class now... spend the time left meaningfully... I'd really rather be playing games with my classmates on Youth Day than being station masters... I really miss 202.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAGNELINE! =)
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
8:25 PM
Monday, June 26, 2006
Well, today was the first day of school.
It was exciting. The first day, with so many announcements regarding so many things and so... so exciting. 4 more days to youth day hahah.
Well so first lesson was Chinese. Before the lesson we were praying that we'd get Mr Toh, and as I looked down over the balcony to the 1st floor I saw 102 and 202 CL people. 102 HCL lah hahah. Immediately I felt... I felt a sense of family.
Well 202 and 201 are having Chinese together and today Mr Toh said that Jiayu and Brenda "xi3 xiang1 feng2". Hehe I felt happy for them, especially seeing those cheerful smiles on their pretty faces. And they kept talking and talking... I wonder when I can become like that. I have read many horoscope stuff about Aquarius, saying that we have difficulty trusting people, and would rather keep everything to ourselves. And that people rarely know the real us, because we don't let people understand us. And that in reality we enjoy solitude. O.o Am I a loner? No one to "xi xiang feng" with hahah. Anyway also noticed that Elaine cut her hair and cut a fringe(she didn't have a fringe initially) and then puts a clip there. She introduces this new hairstyle to Jiayu hehe.
Well after Chinese was break and then Bio, which I and Jiayu and Elaine were late for so Jiayu and I decided to sit with the boys 'cos the girls there no space... and Elaine went to sit there. O.o well sometimes I find(I'm being honest here) that she's trying too hard to stick to the girls, is this a way of making the boys take notice of her? Sometimes she does give me that impression. Nevermind.
Biology was enjoyable. I've always liked Ms Tan. I've liked all my teachers. Ms Tan rebonded her hair! New sem fresh start. =D And I realised that I am able to concentrate well now, and that when I am lost I ask questions. It's good for me. =D I like Ms Tan =D
Then lunch... was practising Dolly... didn't have much of a lunch. Just sandwiche(my dad made it). Anyway I've decided to not eat:
-fries
-noodles
-rice
-deep fried stuff
The first 3 because they are very high in starch and very fattening. The last is because of causing pimples, since I do not want to be like a *certain*, well ahem. Nevermind.
At home I don't really eat rice... because we are currently eating a type of "healthy rice" which really looks and feels horrible(as in it's hard and all that). Blah. Then what to eat?
Chicken chop lor. Without the fries, and with lots and lots of coleslaw! I LOVE COLESLAW HAHA!
Sharlene and I played a duet on the piano. It's called berceuse and it's the 1st movement of the Dolly Suite by Gabriel Faure. I have found my love for piano again. I'm really happy that all the efforts of the NAFA teachers have not come to waste because I know how to apply my techniques and how to express my feelings through the music. I don't think I have disappointed anyone. Sometimes I just get the feel... and then my fingers do all the work. The wrist moves, energy exerted from the lower arm, tapping... staccato and legato(deep and light). Miracles.
Well then it was Integrated Science and I couldn't really concentrate that well but I'm glad I still did ask some questions and I was clear about what was going on. I have to admit, 2 hour lessons are really very stressful and exhausting. Mr Ang says "oh dear and it's only the first day of school" when I told him school was exhausting so I don't enjoy staying in the library/school until 6 anymore. I'd rather go home. Blah. It's no use staying in school anyway... unless I'm really concentrated and unless it's really early... I don't like evenings or late times. I wouldn't be able to concentrate. Anyway what would I be in the library for? I always get distracted.
Well anyway during lunch I sat with the 205 girls and heard them talk about the supposed reshuffling next yr regarding us yr3s. Erm, yr3 2007 lol. Apparently the admin is going to reshuffle us to accommodate the new yr3s coming in next year. Not that I don't welcome them, and I know that the reasons behind doing so are fairly justified. It's just all the emotions and bonds and
family. Today I heard the 205 girls praising their class, saying they all so guai and Joyce saying that 205 was the best class and Chuiyi saying that they are all so motivated to study. I felt a bit left out and I thought if 202 were as motivated to study as them, and if all of us were guai. Hmm... I think that none of us are naughty or ill-behaved just that we might be more active/restless? I think that all of us are guai deep down. And that we are motivated to study. Haven't we been winning so many inter-mentor group competitions? Even soccer hahah. Sporty, and yet smart class. I love my class. Of course I wouldn't want it to be split up.
I notice that the school has been breaking so many promises they have made when we just came to this school. They promised us that we would stay together as a mentor group for 6 years. They promised Mr Chai that he would be our mentor for the rest of our lives here. What happened? Our class changes mentor once every semester, and it's probably only our class. It's like the school wants to make a joke out of us and put every maths teacher as our mentor to try us. They
broke their promise. And they promised us we would stay as a whole mentor group for 6 years and what happens? A reshuffling is going to occur. They
broke their promise. Why is the admin so unfeeling for us? So inconsiderate? They should trust us that we would warmly welcome the new students and help them in their work if needed. After all our standards would be different, so what's the point of putting us together? It does not make sense to me. Someone suggested a petition, but I doubt it will work. The admin is like a dictator, a tyrannical leader. They had the ability not to break their promise, but they broke one after another. And now there is a mentor group classroom for each, which makes our school just like others. Where is our uniqueness? This is utterly disappointing. Really. And I really hope one of the school staff reads this and amplifies it to the whole admin. Yes, punish me for making such comments, I am a Student Councillor too. Strip me of my post, let me do Corrective Work Order. I'll never change my opinions about this school's admin. How they were so hard and cold.
Well I certainly have much more to say but nothing's in my head now. Just to mention that my kids from grey5(first camp) smsed me to tell me if they had gotten into NUS High or not. Christine got in but her mom is trying to talk her out of it because she says we're still in the guinea pig stage. Zikri got in and I'm happy for him. Vanessa, Yichen, Raimie have not smsed me yet, and I do not have Edward/Mingxuan's contacts. Joshua didn't get in but he has been offered a place in other prestigious secondary schools in Singapore and I'm proud of him. About the 2nd camp kids(yellow5), I don't know their results yet because I didn't get any of their contacts, except Vivian, who hasn't smsed me yet. I just think that there is a rather low possibility of Wei Jian getting in because the teachers weren't too pleased. I just wanted to say that I think ht is a smart boy, and that if the educators were willing to give him a chance, he would definitely do well in this school. He can change his attitude and his control freak mindset. He certainly does deserve another chance. If he were to get in, I wouldn't mind being his godsister, Mr Tan. I would be most willing to spend my time helping him and counselling him. No one is bad enough that they should be denied a chance. As long as the people around him are willing to help him change to the best of their abilities, he is still a fine person. I hope Christine comes in, I'll be most willing to help her in her work if she's struggling. Also, welcoming Zikri in. Love these kids to bits. Vanessa will definitely get in too. =)
Well, as for what I intend to do after I graduate and before I go to university, of course I will not be spending time playing Maple. I would willingly come back to NUS High as a teacher, and teach these lovely young juniors of mine and quench their thirst for knowledge. I want them to grow up to be fine young men and ladies, and to become the best people. I have great aspirations for my juniors, so I will be most willing to teach them. Then, I will go to university. Maybe I will still play maple, until the Maple Wagner(if I ever get one) expires. ;)
Good day everybody.
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
6:01 PM
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Heh today went school for meeting. And some other plans which didn't work in the end hahah.
Meeting! We sadistically tortured a millipede, much to my delight. I HATE CREEPYCRAWLIES. Sidwyn was using a marker to prod it. Sam said he was staining it lol the poor thing. Hmph.
Oo the peeps are gonna DIE. With their tiny brain and meagre brain cells. OO. Not gonna elaborate.
Anyway the school was holding this Citigroup festival thingy and lots of events were going on. I went to watch badminton and only a few men were good. The others were not good but better than me lah. Erm most of the women I think I can beat. Anyway I went to slack in the canteen then went to hall again and finally plucked up enough courage to tell those strangers I wanted to play but none of the females wanted to play so I played with this guy who asked me "You playing for school?" I nodded my head. Hahah then he said," Can tell... your footworks all there." OO. I regard that as a compliment. =') No one has ever commented anything about my techniques before, all scold me n00b. lol just kidding. That was in yr1. Now in badminton, people IMPLY that I am n00b instead of telling me straight. Well nevermind it's just some metal oxide(rust). I know that I will make a comeback, guys, once I heal that disastrous knee of mine. Dad has promised to take me to the doctor.
Oh and before I left the man who played with me said "Your footworks is there you just have to stretch more." He was bullying me throughout T.T And dunno if it's not used to racket or what I couldn't smash and my knee was hurting throughout. Gah but they say don't blame failure on racket. Blame it on lousy skills. Level up time... to acquire more skill points. Hahah infested with maple...
I found a maple claw. So common... all my friends have got one so no one was willing to buy from me or even interested. :( I will upgrade it and give it as a gift if I can... I not sin... so I will keep doing pq for my mage and get claw scroll! =D Then I will upgrade the claw and give as a gift to one of my sin friends. Erm... or I can talk to JM from tha streets. =D One of my maple plans. If you slowcoach haven't already noticed, I am now LV30 BANDIT Tingann. =D So funny when I was about to JA(job advance)... xuanhao gave me a "briefing". Told me to sit down and listen and we both were literally sitting on our blue chairs in the game. =D Going to lvl up soon... =( so slow my training. xh and sister have already lvl-ed up twice in 2 days and me only once and no matter how hard I tried today still couldn't lvl up lor. GONNA TRY HARDER! Emman is lvl-ing up TOO!
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
2:39 AM
Saturday, June 24, 2006
I really hope that as I type this, I will not go into an emotional breakdown.
Has anyone ever experienced your furrowing of eyebrows and trying to keep your lips curved upwards(but can't-- hahah "stiffen that upper lip up!") just trying to keep those saltwater back in your eyes for the much needed moisture?
I never liked to let others see me cry. It would be embarrassing. So I do that alone at night.
In the last week of the holiday, I cried most of the nights there was. I was
so living in the past.
A few days ago, I wrote in my diary my most heartfelt words and thoughts and as I was writing, tears trickled down. Then, I realised my oversensitivity. Or rather I thought I was being oversensitive so I blamed myself for not trusting others enough.
2 days ago I cried again. Partly because I couldn't get any equipments in maplestory. And lots of other stuff like having nothing to do in the holidays while mom just keeps forcing me to study but I haven't. I smsed Sharlene and Bryan, telling them 'Nowadays I cry almost every night'. Immediately, Bryan tried calling me twice but I didn't pick up because I thought I would sound horrible on the phone. So we resorted to smsing and he told me lots of stuff. In the middle of it all(the healing process hahaha), Sharlene called me and I didn't pick up too. I told her I sounded terrible and she said she didn't mind. Why are there all these nice people in the world? Friends are angels without wings, I heard. Well, so feeling a whole lot better, I went to sleep.
Yesterday I didn't cry =) But I was thinking of the times in RJC. In these times of reminiscence, I forget about the new additions to the NUS High family. I forget about the juniors and junior-seniors and I forget about 20 Clementi Avenue 1. I think about 51 Mt. Sinai Rd and the squash courts where I used to vent my emotions in the later part of the year. The inseparable times we had, the time when Luxi pushed Liyoung into the pond. The 1st mentoring session we had in the CCR when the first thing I heard when I got into the classroom was Gabriel hollering for people to "lock Vardini out of the classroom!" I thought about how I only realised that 1-5 was a class in fine arts when I saw that most of the people in fine arts are the people I have been with for the entire day. I thought about Yuting... and that soccer goal which she failed to save haha. Ms Lee was making us do penalty kicks hehe. I thought about Maths lessons, I thought about Basketball... I thought about how Sunny assessed us for basketball and I got 58/60(I think) and at that time someone threw the ball right into my face and I didn't even realise my lip was bleeding when my mentor groupmates came to tell me so and Paul wanted to have a look at it LOL.
I thought of the times of innocence, the times when we were young. Why are we growing? Why are we growing bigger, and maturing? Why is everything changing? I really have to accept it. It's part and parcel of life.
I miss my innocence. I miss our innocence. I miss my happiness. I miss our happiness.
They're all somewhat quite gone for good. I don't know.
I shall dig out some past memories, a few of the most memorable times I had in my days in RJC:
February 4- my birthday celebration in mentoring =D I bet the pictures all no more liao =( But it was memorable; thanks everyone thanks a lot a lot
February 7- my 13th birthday; received lots of presents that I have never received in my entire life. Thanks everyone
February 16- Suntec Total Defence Exhibition; it was fun; we knew that wearing the NUS High School formal uniform, we shouldn't go into arcade LOL
April 1 1st April's Fool Day in NUS High- Kaywee and Xuanhao thought I was
da xiao jie not independent enough for me to take MRT on my own lol; 1-5 people ganging up to scare me with stupid creepycrawlies and me joining them for CL lesson and we had lots of fun and laughter
April 13 Blurrpokk's 13th Birthday -- the first ever present I prepared for him: contained lots and lots of things, I stuffed everything in and wrapped it and blurrpokk thought it was weird hehe but he liked it =) Still remember I stuffed lots and lots of things inside! Surprise surprise! No doubt weird present but full of my sincerity.
April 22 1st Speech Day- The 102(yes at that time we WERE
102) boys(Lianhan Xuanhao) and Ducky(Joshwong) trying to use phone to take pic of me when I was sitting at the back at the performer's area, looking very
guai; and the "HI~~~~~~" from Xuanhao and funny Lianhan wanted to try out my violin but I didn't let him hahah and Kaywee making some funny remarks and me going up to play Canon and Xuanhao saying that I looked so serious never smile hahah
-I still remember how we got so *into*
Runescape, all of us, and we
used xuanhao's account to trick noobs: bring them to wildy and kill them. Hahah he killed one, and the other ran away. LOL
-Mathias' "
SORRY BOY"
-"u happy i happy" "u not happy i not happy"
-the beginning of the year when royston liyoung and I hanged out together and had fun haha
I'm sure there must be many more... =) Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. And I am smiling now. =) I never realised how blessed I really was. Now, things have changed and I have to move on. I should take these new experiences in my stride, and welcome all the new additions to the NUS High family, as I already had haha. I'm sure I will enjoy school life even if we grow up, mature, and lose all our innocence.
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
5:39 PM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Hahah. Today I got a pleasant surprise in my mailbox from a certain Vanessa Heng.
Hahah. She's sooooo cute la! She's a girl I met in my grey5 team in the 1st Maths and Science camp. I'm really confident she will get in, one of the teachers was really pleased with her and Christine(who got in 'cos she got an amazing
platinum for SMOP GOSH!). Hahah.
Vanessa thanks for the sweet letter and the small G2 pen which I'm gonna keep for very long lol! =D Thanks!! You are tooooo sweet. Hahah. Dunno what to say... lalala. Loveya girl!
Woohoo we'll all see her next year I'm positive! =D
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Sometimes I wonder... how can people actually think of
such venomous things to say. Really. And then feeling all triumphant about it. Seriously... actually I don't think I can ever be so venomous, even though I might have tried to be in the past. Now I have no wish to be, though I really do have some stances though. These stances do not, of course, contain any venom. At least not... obvious venom. Trying to pick at others' weaknesses and then rubbing salt into it and well... just saying things which... do not include swear words or insults but are just... equally hurtful. Okay... that would be classified under... personal attacks? Would it not? Yeah but a more... professional type. LOL. Dunno what I'm saying.
But yeah I'm so mean. ='( Though I wish I weren't. Ohwells at least... not as mean as last time LOL. Now I should be... okay... nice right... hahah. Dunno. I still have really really negative thoughts about people... but I don't really say it out... gosh what a person I am... so dark and sinister. Bleagh. =(
Lol why is this all about myself...
As I was saying... I can't really imagine how venomous a person can get... maybe I can with all those verbal catfights I witness... shouting "whore bitch" etc in Mean Girls... bleagh they're really mean... then I've seen some venom-wannabes... they really make me want to puke sometimes though I really had no wish to just confront them and tell them how lame they actually are because... I don't want to hurt them and... burst their bubble because they think they're cool. Erm, I did not deliberate any sarcasm here in case you were wondering because it's really what I think, and I'm not trying to say that they're acbc. NOTHING of that sort alrights.
Yeah it's really their own decisions I'm in no position to interfere so while I am secretly chiding them deep in my heart I still have to remember to control myself and to keep it to myself lest I hurt others... and that's a good step to begin with right...
Then there are some people who are like... okay I don't know whether it is the real them or not... I really can't tell. I'd rather it wasn't... how can these people be so venomous yet... be happy with oneself about it? And then creating a fake image of oneself as the... omnipotent... i-dunno-what and... degrading others and... labelling others so badly like... GOSH. How does the conscience still survive. Moreover some of the labels are really quite lame and stupid it just reminds me of how childish I was in primary school when I was like that too man like... I can't believe it at all lah.
It's childish. Really. Bleagh sometimes I really don't want to... witness anything else because... it just sucks to find someone you thought was actually a kind and genial person turn into a monster. But at least... the real life one is still there as I know.
Thank God, well I didn't really want to type it here. Whatever. This may sound really really... bad. I don't know why but my love for God seems to be... dying. I haven't been going to church for 2 weeks... who can save me... who can help me... I dread church every Sunday... I do not give thanks to God for all the good things I've had... not like last time... I do not depend on God enough... and sometimes I have even thought of giving up all this commitment and... just live life with no beliefs in anything. I even think that this would make me free... but yes I know that this would invite gasps of shock and... revolt from my fellow Christian friends be them from church or school. Bleagh... I hope that someone can help me in this. If believing in Him were to be such a burden to me... what is the point... how can it even be a burden in the first place... but I feel as if it is beginning to be. OHGOSH SOMEONE SAVE ME@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
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Just read Chuiyi's blog... envy her so much. :( How she can love God so much... I just don't know how... I know I have felt that before... but it just seems to not come back to me anymore. ='( What am I to do... I don't know... I am very very confused now.
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
11:25 PM
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Part 3(Lol I just finished watching a Jap anime called Spirited Away[I think]... so fascinating lah)
Yay Chihiro is finally going back to human world with parents! Hahah I got this pic 'cos of the giant baby named Bou... it is TOO CUTE LA! That's why I continued watching this! CUTECUTE!! He liked Chihiro... and even said to Yubaba(his grandma I think?) that "If you make Sen[Chihiro] cry, I'll hate you." CUTECUTE@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ (sorry too infested with maple)
Chihiro and a pig. The pig looks... cute lol. CUTE LA!
Chrissy and his chem assignment. The Monday before first week of exams... we were in library studying and slogging guts out...
Same place... me and Chengxu. I was resting... TIRED. lol
Chongwei's playing chess with me. Hahah jealous? JUST JOKING. Yeah he playing chess with me(transfer I think) and he was losing but then 'cos Wenxiang gave him pieces he won I think. Aiyah dunno lah I think before that we were playing normal chess and I was winning LOL. Lol so long ago I forgot liao. =D Anyway you see Wenxiang "shifu" the wise old sage sitting their with a slight frown as he plays against Tan Je Hon. =D
More to come if I find out how to upload pics... and videos. =)
HA I OWN YOU ME AND MY PARTY DID PQ ABOUT 8 TIMES STRAIGHT! HA!
SELLING EMERALD EARRINGS FOR LVL 30@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
SELLING SCROLL FOR FULL ARMOUR WHICH INCREASES DEX 100%@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
ZANGELL OWE ME 3K FOR POTS@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
Phew now I think I should have enough money to pay for guild after I sell off these and get back my mesos... is the guild idea still on? =)
Goodnight everybody. Thanks Sharlene for always being there! =)
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
2:19 AM
Part 2 =)
No riding! Fine $000! And a smack with Srinath's hand! Ahahahah! (Or was it Nithin?) This was taken when Ms Stef Tan took us out after lit play(A Beautiful Companion) in the Playden(love that place)! And we found this sign and had a good laugh! Hahah!
Stuart says hi to you in a not-so-gracious manner. xD
Wenxiang too busy with his phone to notice you lah LOL.
Wenxiang trying to waste phone memory agn... -_- T.T
This is where Ms Tan originally wanted to treat us to supper and you can see Chermaine... Renee... Melanie... and a few others I don't know... heh but later on a few of us(Renee and Chermaine and Aaron and moi and Gab I think and Fabian) went 7-11 to buy things and then Ms Tan called off the treat lol.
(Got part 3...)
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
12:06 AM
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Man... I don't know why but I could only transfer phone cam photos... and the p6 camp ones aren't part of it... :(
So weird... but then I'll post it here... and put some captions. =)
Wahahahaha! Phone taken pic from some video taken when we were in yr1. Hahah *sticks tongue out*
Who's that! LOL! Chongwei? Clayton? Wenxiang? The hair... looks like Chongwei's... the dunno-what(cheek?) looks like Clayton's... the nose looks like Wenxiang's... boo. Clongxiang. WHAT A WEIRD NAME I'M LAUGHING HAHAHAHAH.
Wenxiang trying to waste my phone space T.T -_-
Wenxiang tried to take pic of Jehon but Jehon blocked with foot. Eww stinks.
Wenxiang shouts to Jehon "GOTCHA". LOL
Wenxiang trying to get my apple earphones to fit. Haha.
Me and my forever bestie-- Sharlene. =) We look so sweet HAHAHA! :D
Wenxiang gives you a flying kiss! But it all got filtered away through the net of the carbonex 3. Jehon took this picture. =)
Hmmm for some reason I can't seem to load anymore pics in this post... there will be another part 2... ;)
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
2:26 PM
Saturday, June 03, 2006
Whew. Camps, camps and more camps this June holidays! Hehe and then the time between the I should spend it doing homework... and reading... because srsly I do NOT know what to do in Maplestory now I hate Perion!! And I hate training except if I kill monsters for quests. At least I lvled up this afternoon to lvl 23 but that's because yesterday night I played until 97% -.-
Things to update! (I would like to add pics and videos but I have yet to figure out how to transfer images/video files to my desktop computer though there is a laptop lying in my room *eyes dart to corner where all my bags lie*)
1. Council Camp-videos
-pictures
-Amazing Race
-chalet!
-BBQ
-daddy
-MargyFlo and nicenice seniors
-4 of us share a bed! YAY! Or was it 3 of us? :D
-large marshmallows
-the big sexaye bean LOL jjk! :D
-roy gonna wear a certain traditional costume how nice!
-one
bean one sound!
-SUNSHINE!!!!!!!!!!!
-korean soapy dramas... baoliandeng and ken singing wodequanbu :D
2. MA and Sci Camp-adorable p6s!
-grey5!
-christine
-vanessa
-joshua
-mingxuan
-yichen
-edward
-raimie
-zikri
-grey2 cherade game!
-freeze&melt
-the 100plus+twisties incident
-stations G to E
-finale video
-presentations and grey cheers
-the twisties break(the world has gone twisties-bonkers! :D)
-love my teachers and other student leaders and seniors
-kids said aaron and nithin were yr5! :D
-999/995/993 :D
-maplestory freaks
-bryan and aiwei.. why laugh at me de?
-weird p6 came up to me(dinn noe who he was!) and asked my maple user which i presume he has forgotten already anyway
-christine has gotten in! platinum for SMOP you irritatingly smart bugger! :D
-videos and pics
-bio station dinosaurs: xuanhanosaurus? LOL! --> pg66(i think) Dinosaurs and Prehistoric Life(i think)
-my kids' very own alphabet scrabble... they're really such wonderful kids
-kids bullied me T.T
-hokkien incident
-and many more many many more which I may be too lazy to update... :( Must have motivation!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONGBO! YAY!!! (1st June)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHONGMING! YAY!!! (19th June)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR ANG! YAY!!! (15th June)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RANDAYE! YAY!!! (23rd June)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAGGY MAGGY MAGNELINE! (29th June)YAY!!!!!
WE KNOW IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY, AND WE'RE HAPPY TOO! YAYYYYYYY!
Tingan rode the Shrimp Boat.
12:03 AM
